For Mom... Still missing you after 30 years!
Mother's Day ~ 2017
As Mother's Day approaches, I feel a little blue.
Thirty years have come and gone since I last bought a card for you.
The first five years, this day brought the worst kind of pain.
After thirty years, it's mostly the smiles that remain.
But I can't lie.
It feels like forever has gone by.
Instead of missing you less, I miss you more.
Though I'm fine most of the time, I still feel profoundly motherless at my core.
I'm happy and I'm really okay.
But how I wish you'd been able to stay.
Joys and sorrows we would have shared.
Through triumphs and failures, you would always have cared.
And that it was never based on your perfect understanding of me.
As I write these words that I wish you were here to read,
I'd like you to know that your love I still need.
So I'm sad you're not here in physical form.
But on a brighter note, at least I get to see you in my mirror each morn!
I remind myself that one day, I'll see your face again for real.
And I promise, all my love and gratitude you will deeply feel.
The day you left is etched in my heart.
I'll never forget feeling your soul depart.
I want you to know that I ache to see you.
And I longingly hope you can't wait to see me too.
I realize when I get to heaven, there will be much to do;
Jesus to thank, my mansion to view...
But Mom, just remember,
there is no one I want to sit and talk with again more than YOU.