For Mom... Still missing you after 30 years!

Mother's Day ~ 2017

As Mother's Day approaches, I feel a little blue.
Thirty years have come and gone since I last bought a card for you.
The first five years, this day brought the worst kind of pain.
After thirty years, it's mostly the smiles that remain.

But I can't lie.
It feels like forever has gone by.

Instead of missing you less, I miss you more.
Though I'm fine most of the time, I still feel profoundly motherless at my core.
I'm happy and I'm really okay.
But how I wish you'd been able to stay.
Joys and sorrows we would have shared.
Through triumphs and failures, you would always have cared.

The older I grow, the more I comprehend how much you loved me.
And that it was never based on your perfect understanding of me.

As I write these words that I wish you were here to read,
I'd like you to know that your love I still need.
So I'm sad you're not here in physical form.
But on a brighter note, at least I get to see you in my mirror each morn!

I remind myself that one day, I'll see your face again for real.
And I promise, all my love and gratitude you will deeply feel.

The day you left is etched in my heart.
I'll never forget feeling your soul depart.
I want you to know that I ache to see you.
And I longingly hope you can't wait to see me too.
I realize when I get to heaven, there will be much to do;
Jesus to thank, my mansion to view...

But Mom, just remember,
there is no one I want to sit and talk with again more than YOU.

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